by Ikomiki Tue Mar 02, 2021 11:03 am
Things became so complicated. Ikomiki had always preferred simplicity. She followed her instinct, wherever it led her. And it was always blunt. The back of an axe, swung into whatever situation she might face. Delicacy wasn’t one of her strong suits, a long trend that had grown out of her association with nature and the animal world. Things were so simple there, where everything was ruled by base desired, where thinking and understanding weren’t necessary or relevant. As she had been introduced to this new world of humanity, and gradually domesticated, things had shifted away from that simple nature. Maybe this was the fate of all animals who associated too long with humanity, to be warped away from what they once had been. Part of her, in this moment, thought about the girl she once had been. Filthy, angry, hungry. Without the human taint of clothing, satisfying her hunger whenever she wished. A simple life with her brother, where she would have remained a simple beast. That Ikomiki, still on the outskirts of civilization, what would she have thought of the Ikomiki of right now? Would she have been disgusted? Angry? Would she even have been able to understand what she was looking at?
The way his hands trailed down her skin… She shivered. Even though it was so warm here. It didn’t make any sense. It was like every little touch of his lips left an imprint where she could feel the skin tingle. The cloudy haze of heat had seeped into her mind from the bath scene.
When had she become like this?
Ikomiki knew what was going on. Lust was a base instinct. She had been familiar with it, even back before she had any conceptualization of humanity. Masturbation. It came naturally to her as she grew to that age, during those times when heat clouded over her mind… That was completely different from this. This was more than just pure lust driven by the evolutionary desire to breed and pass on your genetics. It was purposeful. Intimidate. Even though there were some of the same base desires involved, she would have been satisfied just being like this. In his arms.
The blushing just wouldn’t go away. She could feel the heat all over her face, enough that she could clearly visualize that pale skin flushed up with red and pink. It was a completely alien experience. That, plus all this indecisiveness. Being paralyzed by surprise. All this shyness. It was foreign to the girl who would smack away her problems with legendary bluntness, who believed in the mandatory suffering of the natural world, who hunted and killed for fun. It was this dainty feeling, like she had become so fragile she might just crack into fragments of porcelain on the spot.
It made her so mad. She had been wavering. But really, she didn’t know what to do. At least, in the sense where she only had educated guesses, and that was a far cry from her usual clear instinct based approach. Having to think about what to do and weird things like emotions wasn’t something she was used to. Ikomiki had been a part of human society for a long time now. She had watched… Mating rituals. She vaguely knew the dance, as unspecific and improvised as it was. What else would you call this other than ritualistic?
Against her butt now… That little squeeze of his elicited a soft sound from her. A sound she had never made before, breathy and gentle against the place in Akihiro’s neck she had been hiding her face. Confusion followed, as she had been unable to understand at first that she had actually been the source of that little moan.
Bringing her head back, she would finally look at him for the first time after they shared that kiss. It was an angry face, scowling with embarrassment and flushed over as if she was fevering. Bewildered at herself and the way she was acting, she had half a mind to lash out. Really she wanted to bite Akihiro right now, just sink her teeth into his shoulder and squeeze him until he exploded. Somewhere along the line she had gotten overwhelmed by the introspection that set in. The simple pleasures of head pats and demanding affection were natural, but somewhere along the line this had become humane. Romantic, although that wasn’t a word she would understand. Like her heart was ready to burst. Another solution that she briefly considered, one that wouldn’t involve Akihiro exploding, was just to push him down and go at him like her instinct told her was correct, even though she wasn’t in heat. It would have involved a lot of biting and scratching, but at the very least she would have been in her home territory there.
“I don’t understand… I don’t understand these stupid human mating rituals.” Her voice came out in a whisper. It felt like a frog was stuck in her throat. “Can’t you just…Please…” She didn’t even know how she wanted to finish that sentence. Maybe Akihro would be able to fill in the blanks.